maybe I've been going back too much lately, when time stood still, and I had you.

It was just me and you, everything was good again.
Up at the water tower, you were chasing me.
One moment I was running almost getting away until,
I looked back a little longer than I should've, at your huge smile.
My heart melted a little.
Loosing my balance, I of course tripped over a rock.
We were laughing so hard, you came over, kissed my forehead, and just sat next to me.
Examining my slightly bleeding knee.
Lucky for us you grabbed my favorite sparkly bandaids before we left the house.
*Imagine the whole aqua marine scene after she fell off the bike.*
You carried me back to where our picnic spot was,
-teasing me about how clumsy i was, just being all dumb knowing it was clearly your fault-
and layed me on the blankets right next to you.
We just watched the sunset go down and star gazed all through the night.
Joking around and laughing our hearts out like we used to.
You fell asleep and I just layed in your arms smelling you like the creep I am, amazed that you were mine again and things were the same, if not better.
At that moment I promised myself I would let nothing ruin us again.
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But I was only dreaming.
Please get out of my them, you've been the star for too many nights now.
Stop making my heart hurt all over again, it really isn't fair.

brown headed stranger with a five letter name.

let me let you in on a little secret.
we weren't really standing on the railing to watch the game..
andd i might have crept over your dugout to take a few little peeksies with my lovely bay.
you might have crept back at us with some of your adorable friends.
all nudging eachother and taking turns looking up,
making us laugh because accidental eye contact was somewhat embarrassing.
because it meant you knew we were looking too.
oh well. because the back of your head was nice, but the front was way better.

Dawwnho

I know you say you hate this song.. but deep down (or maybe not even that far down) you love it and probably sing it in the shower or when your alone in the car or whatever you do when you listen to it.

Well this music video is kindof creepy but, I thought it was slightly more relivant than one of the others that there were to choose from. Cause face it my dear, you're occationally quite thee creep:) I also hope to imagine this is about how the little guy inside of you looks, so it just works all around.

St. Geezin it.

Oh my oh my, I may have loved it there more than I should've.
First of all 73 degree weather, perfect.
Second? Baseball games, boys, pants, and everything about it.
I intend on marrying one of those boys, because lets not kid ourselves even for a second.
They're the PERFECT men. I love love love them.
Cheers to the Lone Peak baseball team who we may or may not have mainly rooted for,
but aside from that, also to the PG team whom also did amazing as usual.
Thirdly, hot tubbin and tanning. Sunburn never felt so great:)
Wonderful preview of summer. (Which, for the record needs to get here faster)
 I definitely can't wait to be goin' back at the end of this month with my lovely cousin.
Cause to be honest, this trip was slightly too short for my disiring.
Thankyou to my dear liddle Bay who made it happen, and my grandparents who so kindly
let us stay with them and fed us the whole time. :)

We just know

The "smile" is one of my favorite things ever. And your probably confused on what I'm meaning right now but this is a special one. THEE smile. Kindof an awkward half smile often encorporated with a nice little stance. One of the ugliest little thing ever but who cares because thats the point of it. The meanings behind it are unfathomable. But mainly it's the front of what great  idea is surfacing next, or that something wonderful is yet to happen or is. I tend to share this with my dear Bay. It's the beginning of all the grond adventures of this past weekend and before that and now in the future.

You might have big hands but, you definitely don't have a big heart.

Dear stupid idiot,

You have officially gone 12 slots down on my respect meter.

I'm glad we were never friends on facebook, because after tonight I definitely would have defriended you.

Just because you go to a different school and think you can get away with things, does NOT mean you can.

(Or without at least being caught.)

In this new day and age there is a thing many would like to call twitter.

Welp, we do what we do my dear.

And sometimes people stumble across certain things.

Basically all you had to do was send a simple text.

She made it so easy on you and what did you do?

Nothing. Just pretended like it didn't happen, by going back to the life you once knew.

Now go ahead and keep lying to your mom, and your friends.

 But don't keep thinking you've got anyone fooled. Cause ya don't.

And please just ask yourself, who are you making happy?

Satan or Jesus? Because it's definitely NOT me.

Love, Jessie
P.S. I'm still planning on marrying your babe of a little brother. Kaythanksbye.

oh just a quiz :)

Five things that irritate you about the opposite sex

when all they care/talk about is sports

how they never just say whats really on their mind.

they are horrid texters

when they are completely sweet to you and then when their friends are around and that boy disappears and changes

they'll never understand

The best thing that happened to you this week

spending a few or so hours with emily miller late into the night.

always doin random things that no one else would find acceptable.

 

Something you lied about

..no comment

 

Something you regret
"never regret something that once made you smile, because at one point it was exactly what you wanted"
not always having this ^ frame of mind

Five ways to win your heart

be able to be a complete fool

being open spontaneous situations

laughing at mistakes and not taking things too seriously

knows how to be cute without the overkill

confident but not cocky

Copy lyrics for your current mood or situation

"This night is sparkling, dont you let it go, I'm wonderstruck blushing all the way home."

"And oh that one night, is still the highlight, I didn't need you until I came to, and I was overwhelmed and frankly scared as heck. Because I really fell for you."

 

Things you want to say to an ex:
Go ahead and grow your hair out again and get over yourself.

Music on shuffle and write down the first three songs

Today was a fairytale-Taylor Swift

Half of my Heart-John Mayer

September-Daughtry

A problem you have

PROCRASTINATION and the lack of enough of an ambition to care about changing it.

Five things you want to change

Bloated Gut, the past, point of views, my grades, the season

One thing your excited for

Summmmmmmmmmmer:)

Something you miss

my best friend. and family members that don't live in Utah.

cool haircut bro.

Sometimes I feel like you know what I loved, and then you just go and do it to yourself.
Kay cool. Which brings me to, whether you realize it or not.. (you probably do because sometimes it seems like your just out to RUIN my life.) when you go and cut your hair like that my heart melts. And right now your hair is cut, and my heart has melted. Screw you weenie, for knowing how I feel about these little changes in your appearance, i love you. Now grow it out, so I can fully hate you again.

And sometimes you just have to go ahead and start a blog.

Why? Because its almost 1 in the morning. You've been doing homework allll day, and you dragged your dear friend to 2 different libraries to take a picture of a stupid page that you realize wasnt enough for the citation that you are required to have in your english report.  Slightly fed up? A bit. And you don't feel like venting to someone about this because maybe this is something that is thee most pointless thing ever? Yeah but it's fine. No one knows about this blog anyways. :)